know a lot of people would think that a lot of the things in my life that have
made me the way I am could not really be blamed on me.
what about when I knew what I was doing was wrong and I still did them anyway?
Do I get to use the past as an excuse for the rest of my life?
There is a time when everyone must own up to the truth of life and that is we
chose to be who we are and the past only shapes our future, it doesn't make us
I have done a lot of contemplating
while I have been writing this and I still haven't been able to put a finger on
what it was that got me started on my new course in life.
know a lot of what got me started is due to Dominic, a truly great man who has
shown me that the way I have always perceived life isn't necessarily the truth
- but a defence I have used to survive the years and that to become a better person
in the normal world I have to open myself up to new ideas and new ways of doing
things which has been a lot harder then I thought.
has taken me weeks to get used to just waking up every morning and not wanting
a bong. I still want one but I know that I don't need one to make my day bearable.
A lot of the problems in my life will not
be solved as easily as my craving for Gunja but will take years to identify first
and then months to overcome.
I hope that by
sharing them with you the reader I will be able to show the real person that I
am becoming and that the next time you see a streetie on your way to work or to
do the shopping you will see them in a different light, we are all real and we
So please check in from time to
time and continue to read about my journey, it isn't over yet, as a matter of
fact it has just started and every week I will fill you in on the way I am making
myself into a person who is the same me only better.
email messages of support and encouragement
or questions for Gish to: magishian
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