Searching becomes Job Searching (Tue 13th July 04)
I officially started my journey into the world of job seeking, not that I haven't
had a job before, I have had a couple but today was my first step into the serious
side of finding a job that I will actually enjoy enough that I might think about
making a career out of it.
I have a lot of fears when it
comes to finding a job, my past being what it is and all will probably make it
hard for me to find an employer who is willing enough to overlook enough of my
past and concentrate on the person that I am now and the person that I will be
if I am given a chance.
I am also a bit lacking in the
job skills department which is not only going to make it hard for an employer
to hire me but will make it hard for me to find a job that I am capable of doing
or at the least knowing enough about that I can learn the rest as I go along.
I have always thought in the past that I never needed a
job that I was happy enough getting my fortnightly check from centerlink and that
would be my lot in life, until I was to old to receive a benefit and then I would
get a pension.
I have found lately that this isn't going
to be good enough for me if I want to continue growing as a person, I wouldn't
be happy and I certainly wouldn't be growing if I was just coasting along month
to month on what the government gave me.
Now I have discovered
that to truly grow I have to keep challenging myself and the next thing that I
want to learn about normal life is how the work environment operates and what
it takes to be successful in the business world as a person.
may take me a few tries before I find someone to employ me which is a problem
most people face but I will find a job and then it is up to me how well I perform
and what I will take home from the experience.
know yet what kind of job I want to apply for or if I want to try and get an apprenticeship
to gain some experience so I can then move onto a better job that will fulfill
me more but I do want a job.
I want to learn and I want
to face problems and I know that out there somewhere is a job that I can do and
I do have something to offer now that I have never been able to offer before in
my life which is kind of scary in a way.
When I am out there
in the work force I am not just going to be responsible for myself anymore but
I am going to be part of a much larger team who all have their part to play and
if I make a mistake it could have far reaching effects that are not just confined
to me which is a position I have never really been in before, well not as seriously
as I am considering to place myself into now.
checking in and I will keep you posted on my journey where ever it takes me, hopefully
onto bigger and better things.